While this science is far from becoming a reality, it made me wonder: Can our souls undergo a cryonic freeze?
Instead of our body, maybe our soul can be in a state of almost being alive, barely existing, laying dormant, waiting for a better environment to thrive?
Ok Han, maybe not carbonite freezing, but you get the idea.
I kind of feel like I've been in this state for a while. I think it was a necessary reaction to some things I've been feeling in my heart, but I'm getting tired of laying around feeling unable to move and unable to find God. I don't know why I am stuck in this, I just am. I hope that my time to thaw out will come soon. Perhaps my hand is actually over the button? Perhaps I'm afraid of the damage that will happen if I do thaw? Perhaps I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep up with the world around me if I do come out of my soul freeze?
I feel like I've tried to unthaw myself, but that I keep freezing up again and again. It's not enough.
Perhaps I'm going through this for a reason? Maybe I will become stronger in spite of my lack of motivation to change? Maybe I need to be just in this state of hopelessness for God to come and pull me out of it - knowing that no one, including myself, could do it better. Just like Eustace having his dragon layers peeled off by the lion Aslan.
I feel like I've tried to unthaw myself, but that I keep freezing up again and again. It's not enough.
Perhaps I'm going through this for a reason? Maybe I will become stronger in spite of my lack of motivation to change? Maybe I need to be just in this state of hopelessness for God to come and pull me out of it - knowing that no one, including myself, could do it better. Just like Eustace having his dragon layers peeled off by the lion Aslan.
I cannot do this myself.
Please God, I'm waiting, I need you to get my soul of its frozen state, in spite of the pain I might feel. Only you can do it.
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