I am standing at the mirror and get a close look at my face...
Now I don't fancy myself all that concerned about looks, but I would be lying if I said I NEVER cared...
So close to the mirror, I can see little things that bother me. Things that might not really be that big of a deal. The problem is when I begin to fixate. And I soon realize that I've spent way more time than I have the business to be spending on my face, perhaps even making things worse.
This carries over to other areas in my life.
I fixate on a small task at work and then realize I have no time to do the bigger things. I fixate on a certain detail of a project and spend time meaninglessly making corrections.
This gets worse when it comes to fixating on my failures.
I focus too much on what I feel I lack instead of what I have. In my spiritual journey, I focus on the many little things I feel I should be doing.
I find that I assume God sees me the same way. Truth is, he DOES. But he also sees the bigger picture and is full GRACE. God knows my shortcomings as well as the wonderful things about me...and LOVES me completely. I fail to see this when I get so close to my crap...I really am often a bad gauge of myself.
Times like this, I really need to learn to catch myself and to step away from the mirror.
I figured this Halloween pic would be an appropriate end to this post...